Seven Pints Down - The Broken Heart

The Agony

One thing Ice Bear's friends had always been saying to him is to "chill" since all the feelings were just one-sided and that he would easily get over.

NO!

It is not easy. For any regular relationship breaking, there is at least one very clear thing - that there were feelings from both ends. Both did receive some amount of love back. This is where the worst part lies - there is no receiving back. It is difficult!

For Ice Bear, he is even more numb to realise that this has happened to him for the second time!

And what he does? Just cry to sorrow.

What more? It is many-a-times clearly visible on the face of Ice Bear that he is not okay. And whenever he tries to open up to Panda just to share his grief, Panda realises this and tries to avoid any communication till Ice Bear settles down to "normal".

Once known for his cool, Ice Bear is turning into something he never thought of. He has been expressing emotional and verbal aggression to Panda lately. He gets irritated quickly, has screamed at her once. All of for which he is even more broken now. Panda tries to hit back to Ice Bear by saying, "dude... get over your PMS...".

Ice Bear has never felt this guilty in life!

Soon, Ice Bear and Panda (and Grizzly) will be graduating from their MBA and would head to their destinations. Somewhere Ice Bear is glad that now he will have some time of his own without Panda. But more often, he is sad.

All this has had a good toll of him and he has been draining - emotionally, psychologically and socially - he is slowly moving towards isolation and is becoming materialistic and unwelcoming. He feels as if he had missed the train two years ago when he met her.

Why not clear it out?

The answer is simple. Care. 

Ice Bear cares for Panda.

Ice Bear knows what it takes to share the grief with someone a person trusts. Panda is constantly in her own grief for never having a dating life or getting that "love" from Grizzly or anybody else.

Ice Bear simply doesn't want to disturb the equation by opening about his strong feelings which would eventually create a distance. He still wants to be good friends with her.

What's next?

Ice Bear is an introvert who has deeply got attached to an extrovert. Panda has become a catalyst for his happiness. And Ice Bear realises this dependency is not good for both of them. He just wants everything to be "cool" at the end of the day and see her and himself happy, wherever they are.

He wants to enjoy the same wavelength with her for life.

But it is just difficult for him to get past over with the feelings. These are genuine. 

And this is the reason he is not happy in life.

Is Ice Bear weak? 

No. He is strong but is delicate and sensitive when it comes to such things. 

What's next?

Let us see if Ice Bear can resurrect again, stand up to start everything again, if someone strikes the heart like the same, once again.

Deep down, Ice Bear wishes the same to Panda for her own happiness.

Love.